June 2018 – Introspection

June has been filled with changes for me, some new, some victories, some surprises, some simply a return to “previous settings” of sorts. I moved back to Ottawa, I started at a new job at a software company, I returned to an old standby – coaching the PaddleAll program at the canoe club, I registered for classes at a new school, and I began packing and planning for my new apartment (move in should be July 2018). With all of these changes, I find myself reflecting regularly on the situations which surround me. The additional energy that I have gained from tube feeds, I find, leaves me with energy for introspection and self-improvement.

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Reuniting with a former elementary school teacher (June 2, 2018)

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First time back in a sprint kayak in 2 years (June 25, 2018)

For the first time in a long time, every decision I make is being made with my own wellness in mind. I am done making decisions for the sake of others instead of myself, and decisions for the sake of what society tells me is expected. For the first time in a long time, my choices feel right. Being closer to my family, and to my medical support, feels right. My community being happy that I have returned to them feels right. My new school program choice, computing and applied mathematics, feels right. A school which allows me the flexibility to take the courses I need, at the time I need, feels right. The distance from the, occasionally toxic, competitive culture at Waterloo, while maintaining the friendships I made there through the internet, feels right. The stable nature of a school which does not require it’s students to be constantly on the move feels right.

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Stopping to admire the sunset (June 24, 2018)

The past few years have been an absolute whirlwind, and I am finally feeling a sense of true peace. I have time to create, and emotional space to appreciate the beauty which surrounds me, and I absolutely am taking advantage. I hope whoever reads this finds the motivation to do the same.

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New music and evening walks – it’s the little things in life (June 8 and June 27, 2018)

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