Hey friends, long time no speak! How are you all? I’ve missed writing to you! It’s been… a while since I’ve been active on here. I’ve taken on a second job at a climbing gym which, when piled on top of school, puppy raising, exercise and my first job, is proving to be thoroughly exhausting. I’ll be the first to admit, I’ve been doing a fair bit of living moment to moment and neglecting creative projects such as this blog in the process.
In exhausting seasons of life such as this, I think that it’s important to remember that they are only that: seasons. They are transient entities of sorts, periods of time which do not necessarily have definitive beginnings and ends so much as retroactive “before”s and “after”s. Often I personally don’t notice my schedule filling up until long after I have become overwhelmed by it. At this point, I find that there usually isn’t much to be done about the reality of the situation so much as there is an opportunity to work on maintaining a perspective which is as positive as possible.
I find that it is often useful for me to ask myself questions about my perception of my situation more than it is useful for me to analyze the situation itself. For example, today I chose to consider how I might look back on my current situation in ten years’ time. Will I regret my current hard work? Will I be proud of having pushed through my exhaustion in favour of education? Will I regret working to stay financially independent and taking on extra shifts so that I can afford to travel? When I take a stance which is as objective as possible, the answer to potential future regrets is, consistently, “no”. In my experience, hard work very rarely amounts to regret when applied with specific goals in mind.
Life may be exhausting at the moment, but none of the items in my schedule have been added without a specific purpose. For the time being, I think that that will be my mantra. Everything is being done with a purpose, Sabina, you may be exhausted but all of your obligations have a purpose. I hope that those of you who find yourselves in similar situations can perhaps adopt a similar mantra.
I’ll do my best to get a proper update up here this weekend, but, in the meantime, I hope that you all are well ❤
Have a good rest of your week!