I Want

I was looking at the moon out the window in the shower tonight as I wished I could capture the feeling I experienced with my words. Some day, I’ll properly combine it with sound and I’ll snag it.

I want to write the kind of songs that remind people of strangely specific, yet nostalgic moments in their lives. I want to write the kind of songs that come on late at night on a road trip playlist, when conversation has dulled and all that keeps the driver company is the sound of the engine and the glow of tail lights off in the distance.

I want to write the kind of songs that can keep lonely people company late at night, and the kind of songs that bring all of those people together at concerts as they all sing along. I want to write the songs that I needed and continue to need when alone and hiding my fear in the hospital. I want to write songs that grant people the ability to be vulnerable- if only for a moment and only with themselves. I want to write songs that make people with experiences similar to mine feel less alone, because after all we go through we sure as hell deserve to have a collective voice. I want us to be able to scream and shout and cry and reject the idea that stoicism is equal to strength because sometimes life is REALLY DIFFICULT, and feel okay for doing so.

Some day I will write the songs that I need. I hope that day comes to me sooner than I think.